I will not say that I’m not afraid; that would be lying. But I feel an aura of invincibility against all odds. Why? I don’t know exactly, but I guess because I saw people way more dishonest, incompetent, unreliable, or straight up dumber than me succeed as entrepreneurs, so why not me?
It’s not like I am a naïve 20 something (not that there is anything wrong with being 20 or naïve). I am almost 40. I worked both in the corporate world (management consulting & banks) and start-ups; I even launched my own company in my 20s (I was naïve). So I know all the stats about all those startups that fail before their first birthday, let alone 2nd or 3rd . But f**k the stats right? You can’t succeed if you don’t try, right?…. or wrong?
I honestly don’t know, so even though I think about that all the time, I act like I don’t. I act like I’m confident, like I am sure of what I am doing, like I determined that there is a clear market for what I do, where, and how I want to do it.
But I also hedge my bets by acting cool about it. To friends who say, “It takes courage to be in your 40s with a 6 year old kid, and to change countries to launch your business at the same time.” I reply, “Well, I’ll do my best, and if it doesn’t work, I’ll just find a job and get back to the workforce”, like it’s not such a big deal. But I bet it would be a huuuuge deal: What about the feeling of failure, or all the money you spent for nothing (especially when you don’t have much to start with)? Will I even be able to find a job? Nothing’s for sure…
But I have a great wife: a beautiful, terrific business woman, exceptional mom who I love as much today as I did when we first started dating almost 15 years ago. I also have true friends, on whom I can rely. And I really think I am at that point where I am confident to have the vision and the management skills to start my business. So I guess that’s it, self-confidence and entourage. That’s what made me take the leap.