I will not say that I’m not afraid; that would be lying. But I feel an aura of invincibility against all odds. Why? I don’t know exactly, but I guess because I saw people way more dishonest, incompetent, unreliable, or straight up dumber than me succeed as entrepreneurs, so why not me?
It’s not like I am a naïve 20 something (not that there is anything wrong with being 20 or naïve). I am almost 40. I worked both in the corporate world (management consulting & banks) and start-ups; I even launched my own company in my 20s (I was naïve). So I know all the stats about all those startups that fail before their first birthday, let alone 2nd or 3rd . But f**k the stats right? You can’t succeed if you don’t try, right?…. or wrong?
I honestly don’t know, so even though I think about that all the time, I act like I don’t. I act like I’m confident, like I am sure of what I am doing, like I determined that there is a clear market for what I do, where, and how I want to do it.
But I also hedge my bets by acting cool about it. To friends who say, “It takes courage to be in your 40s with a 6 year old kid, and to change countries to launch your business at the same time.” I reply, “Well, I’ll do my best, and if it doesn’t work, I’ll just find a job and get back to the workforce”, like it’s not such a big deal. But I bet it would be a huuuuge deal: What about the feeling of failure, or all the money you spent for nothing (especially when you don’t have much to start with)? Will I even be able to find a job? Nothing’s for sure…
But I have a great wife: a beautiful, terrific business woman, exceptional mom who I love as much today as I did when we first started dating almost 15 years ago. I also have true friends, on whom I can rely. And I really think I am at that point where I am confident to have the vision and the management skills to start my business. So I guess that’s it, self-confidence and entourage. That’s what made me take the leap.
Confessions of an entrepreneur is a series of articles that reflect the observations, feelings and thoughts of an entrepreneur in his late thirties trying to launch his business. We felt that what he says could find an echo among our readers.